Happy New Year

It would be strange if I posted my new year's resolutions on the 2nd so I have to attempt to finish this entry as quickly as I can before 12 am tonight.

This New Year again was uneventful and extremely foggy. As I can recall my new year were never exciting to begin with...

As far back as I can remember,

• December 31, 2005-I counted down alone and just took pictures of myself and a gift my boyfriend at the time gave me. I did receive two phone calls wishing me a happy new year which was nice.

hehe yes I was lame

• December 31,2006- This year was a bit different. After the summer, and a new boyfriend, my parents were much more lenient of me going out and coming home late. My boyfriend and I watched Blood Diamond and we counted down in the movie theaters. Afterwards, we went to his friends house where his other friends were there and they made us omelets and we ate and talked. It was small and it was intimate. It was actually really sweet and really fun.
• December 31, 2007-I was high and it was depressing.
  
• December 31, 2008-This year was interesting. I wasn't really planning on going out for New Year's but I figure since it was new years, I might as well. Jocelyn, Marvin, and I went to a party in Palos Verdes, a very rich neighborhood. It was a very beautiful house. The music was horrible, the drinks were strong. However, about ten minutes after 12 a fight broke out and one side actually pulled out a freaking ax and started going at it on a car. We drove around looking for this other party, but ended up giving up since it was just too foggy outside.

So this year, it was alright. I can't say that I had a ton of fun, but I mean I was bored either. I was able to count down with my best friends, and I'm content with that.

Looking back on 2008, I'm happy with what has happened but not necessarily satisfied. This year, I started school at Berkeley, and I really feel that I wasted my first semester at Berkeley. Partly because I was too shy to join any clubs or attempt to put myself out there. I stayed mostly in my dorms and hung out with my few close friends. I had a lot of fun outside of school, my social life was at a new high, but my academic life was left unfulfilled. Returning to Lawndale for the summer, I felt as if I didn't belong anymore. I couldn't relate to most of my friends and in reality I didn't want to anymore. This feeling only intensified this break. Fall semester at Berkeley was for a lack of a better word, AMAZING. I became more active, I joined VSA which I am so glad I did because I met so many people great people. My friends from SoCal came up and I showed them the best time. I became a whole lot closer with my roommates and Steve, and met really cool kids [Ryan, Alex, Sophia]. Together we made-ROYGBIV [right order?]. I finally feel like I'm slowly starting to make my mark at Berkeley through the Vietnamese community which for a really long time, I had a disconnect from it.

But to touch back on the note of my life in Berkeley and in Lawndale, I feel as though I have to different identities. Or rather, I just don't feel like I can be myself here at Lawndale. I become extremely anti-social and I hate going out. Even going to place alone like shopping at the mall or walking around target, I feel like I can't even really act like myself. I don't know, its strange. For me, even though I obviously don't know everyone, at Berkeley everyone and everything fits into place. Being here in Lawndale, I'm out of my realm. It's scary that I sometimes consider Berkeley to be more of a home then here. I just wish I could take my best friends and move them up here with me.

Speaking of my friends, more specifically, Percilla. I love that girl to death. She has been my best friend since the 7th grade and with her, I could be gone for 5 years and come back and talk to her like I just saw her the day before. I am just in love with the way she carries herself, how she cares for the people around her, and how she truly does not give a fuck. LOL She is fcking confident and beautiful.

And Last, But not least...

My New Year's resolutions for 2009:

• Eat healthier-I must admit, I give into cravings way too easily. I have really bad eating habits.
  
• Have more discipline in mind and body-This semester is going to kick my ass if I don't keep myself in check. I made that mistake this semester and I am regretting it.
  
• Read More- I do not do that enough
  
• Drink green tea!-It helps with the metabolism and studies show that people who drink green tea are less likely to have cancer
  
• Be organized
• Put myself out there-networking wise, friend wise, everything
  
• Drink less-I do it way too much. It's not healthy. It's also starting to get old and repetitive.
  
• Understand the meaning of a womyn-I feel like I owe it to myself to do that.
  
• Be more aware of my surroundings
  
• Blag more...update at least once every week